Fourteen - FROM DARK TO LIGHT

GROWING UP GAY IN COUNTRY QUEENSLAND WASN’T EASY, AS THIS MEMOIR ATTESTS

The American sitcom The Ellen Show was not really staple viewing among our regular roster of Home and Away and Neighbours. But it was on occasionally in the background as we sat down together around the glow of the small screen in the living room to eat dinner. I recall the honey colour of Ellen DeGeneres’ hair, and that her nose kind of looked like mine, with its pronounced bump at the bridge. When we did watch, though, we all hoped that her fictionalised character would finally meet the man of her dreams, settle down and be happy.

But later on, as it turned out, Ellen was gay – both the character and the comedian portraying her. I watched, mouth agape, at the news reports when she came out as a lesbian, and the storm of controversy that swept across America. It seemed to be quite shocking for her fans and the television critics, to say the least.

It’s almost impossible to believe now that just two decades ago such a simple act could cause such chaos. With two small but significant words – ‘I’m gay’ – Ellen’s world came crashing down.

How could an act of honesty and personal authenticity have such an enormous personal and professional cost? The show had been a hit and had a loyal following. Ellen was roundly beloved, and yet she was virtually hounded out of show business for simply telling the world who she really was, for living her truth – finally – rather than a carefully constructed and exhausting lie.