Filled With Shame Over My Past Life

I'M ashamed of the things I did as a younger man.

- JANE O'GORMAN

My girlfriend thinks I'm a nice guy but I'm not. I'm a fake and a fraud.

She doesn't know about all the women I hurt and the blokes I ripped off in my youth.

Between the ages of 17 and 35 I was invincible - king of the world. I stole, I cheated, and I didn't give a damn… I worked for a bloke who was running more rackets than Wimbledon.

From pretending to fix the roofs of old folks to selling knockoff designer goods, he and I considered ourselves better than everyone else. We'd knock on doors and offer to jet wash the drive, then he'd nick bikes and garden equipment while I seduced the wife.

Having sex with older, often married women was my kink. I went on great holidays - I splashed my cash on booze and broke hearts wherever I went.