I can’t imagine wanting you to touch me the way lovers discover each other’s bodies at midnight.
My body caves in on itself at the thought of it, my body becomes an unpeeled clementine running around the bedroom trying to find its skin.
Sex, for me, is the chef who has stumbled into my kitchen to make me a dish I never wanted, peeling potatoes, peeling onions, and frying them together— I can’t find the nerve to tell this chef that I hate it when my food touches, but I’ve been brought up to eat what is put in front of me and not complain.
This story is from the November/December 2016 edition of Cicada Magazine for Teens and Young Adults.
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Queen Persephone
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What Genre of Story Are You Living In?
Good morning, sunshine! It’s a regular day in the life, except you’re unexpectedly at the center of like five love triangles and/or your mom is screaming that you need to find a spouse who’s rich enough to support your ten younger sisters and/or the fate of the human race is suddenly resting on your shoulders. Clearly, you’ve entered a fictional world through some blend of magic, mystery, and staying up way too late last night reading. The only question is— which world is it?
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CIC: In “The Thread,” the concept of soul mates is taken to a pretty chilling extreme. Why do you think this concept can be so damaging? What kind of power can be found in not “living the life everyone expects you to live”? DU: I think any concept that is applied equally to everyone is probably damaging. Because that assumes we’re all alike and that we all want the same thing. If you don’t want that thing, then you have to pretend to want it to be considered normal. Nowadays, thank goodness, we’ve become a lot more accepting of many of our differences. Yet with love and romance, we still seem to apply this one storyline to everybody’s life: you meet someone, you kiss etc., you fall in love, and you live happily ever after with them. How many times do we hear that story, in songs, movies, fairy tales, books, by the time we grow up? Not everybody wants that particular story, but it’s really hard to exist outside of a narrative that’s everywhere. It’s hard to feel normal and good if you’re not part of the story. On the other hand, it’s hard to pretend to be someone you’re not. It takes up so much energy. And it only gets harder the longer you do it. I don’t think it’s sustainable.
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Love Letter
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